Here is the continuation of my late night (un)complicated ramblings… Let me knwo if I am stupid or if this is something that you too might be struggling with…
So this is the second night in the last three days that I haven’t been able to sleep when it was already way past my bedtime. It is really gnawing on me that I know that there has got to be something more simple to this thing that dominates my life. I think that part of the reason that it bothers me so is that I am a person who prides himself (even the phrase itself smacks of something that I shouldn’t be doing) in studying and in turn interpreting or re-interpreting it into something that people can understand. Is it possible that I have done the same thing to Christianity and to the gospel with detrimental affects which I will have to answer for on the Day of Judgment? “God be merciful to me, a sinner.” Have I, in a sense become a stumbling block to people who were earnestly seeking Christ not because I didn’t tell them about Him but because I did so in a manner that was more complicated than it should or had to be in order to stroke my own ego and feel more comfortable in my own “educated” skin? When people think of me do they think of someone who “knows a lot” (which feels totally ungenuine because I know that this isn’t really the case) or as someone who is just seeking to know Jesus? I have never heard someone say the second option. What an indictment of my character that is!!!
I think one of the other reasons that it bothers me so much is because it is causing/forcing me to rethink a lot of the things that I have spent/wasted so much time focusing on. Do I really need a philosophy of preaching for postmoderns or do I just need a thirst for Christ that flows through everything I say? Do I need to truly utilize the parallel curriculum model or just help people to develop a heart for God, His Word, and His people? Do I really need to be worrying about teaching a hermeneutics course for a church when my brothers and sisters throughout the world are in terrible conditions? I am trying to contemplate and architect my “legacy” while the brothers and sisters in the Yucatan are facing (or are by now) without ANYTHING. Where is the heart, head, and hands of Christ in all of this? Maybe it is in the fact that it is bothering me and that the Holy Spirit is trying to teach me that there are some things (some drastic things) that need to change in my life. Why does it have to be some complicated? I used to be so critical of the shallow nature of those people who would go to sporting events with John 3:16 hand painted on a piece of posterboard. “How ignorant,” I used to think “there is so much more to it than that.” Is there really? “For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son so that whoever believes in Him would not perish but have eternal life.” Is it, could it, might it possibly, is there any way, just maybe that it really is this simple?
Doesn’t the concept of Christianity being simple really make it what it has always been…namely absolutely revolutionary? When we make it difficult it becomes “murkier”. You have Evangelical Christianity, Denominational Christianity, Non-Denominational Christianity, Missional Christianity, Emerging Christianity, Postmodern Christianity, Ultra-Conservative and Legalistic Christianity, and on and on. Something is missing. Namely it seems this man that had no special appearance and that was hated, mistreated, and eventually killed by those who didn’t realize that his simple, revolutionary message was the very words of God Himself. The message of grace, love, and forgiveness really was just that, a message of grace, love, and forgiveness. When he said “my yoke is easy and my burden is light,” I think we “interpret” that to mean that Jesus isn’t oppressive or unduly difficult and yet the message that we pass on about the faith that bares his name seems to smack of the exact opposite. “Oh for a faith that will shrink though pressed by every foe, that will not tremble on the brink of any earthly woe!!”
It’s time to try to get some sleep. I want what Jesus has always offered. I don’t want to be someone who peddles a Gospel that is different, more complicated, or more “innovative” than that which Christ Himself delivered almost 2,000 years ago. I desire for the heart of Jesus to BE my heart, for the hands of Jesus to BE my hands, for the mind of Jesus to BE my mind. The world is so desperately seeking the simple revolution of a Jewish Rabbi who was that and so much more. He was the Son of the Living God and he came to share a message that “God so loved the world that he sent his one and only Son so that whoever believes in him would not perish but have eternal life.”
Father, in my life let the simple revolution of your Son begin afresh. Change me from the inside out and from the outside in. Mold me and make me into what you would have me to be. May I be a humble servant, faithfully proclaiming the simple truth that “while we were still sinners Christ died for us.” Lord, reign in me.
Amen.
August 21, 2007
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